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There’s No Place Like Home

Monday, October 25th, 2010

Half term at Ashworth Towers (and elsewhere, so I’ve heard) which means not so much new writing being done this week – but preparation for the second half of my creative writing course at UCLAN, a bit of manuscript appraisal and the finishing touches for my Blogging for Beginners workshop (I believe there are a couple of places left, still, if you’re interested).

Yesterday, the Rainy City Stories Panel event for the Manchester Literature Festival – Nicholas Royle, Clare Dudman and me chatting to each other about the way we use ‘place’ in our stories. Despite the fact that it’s going to be a little while before Cold Light is available, I read from it and that was exciting.

Clare talked about her travels – the way she prefers to visit places alone to soak up the atmosphere and find out things about a place you’d never pick up from books or the internet. For one of her books, she traveled though Patagonia on her own. I talked (less impressively) about my trips into Fleetwood on the bus with my then-toddler Small Fry for A Kind of Intimacy. Cold Light is set in Preston, where I’ve almost always lived, so the only travel I did was into my memories. I joked that I set all my fiction in places fairly near to me because I’m a lazy researcher, but now I’m starting work on book three (still no title) which is primarily set in Chorley but with one of the characters having spend significant time in the US, I am thinking a trip ABROAD to Utah might be in order.

And of course my interest in the North West is not because I am a lazy researcher. But I’m not a faithful, truth telling one either. One question from the audience made me think – I’d mentioned that for Cold Light, I’d had to do a little bit of re-jigging of what Preston looks like to serve the plot, and that I’m expecting some local readers to gleefully point out these ‘mistakes’ to me at some point in time. I shrug in response to this – it really, really doesn’t bother me because novels aren’t maps and I think we turn to fiction for other kinds of truth than the factual. Although I know that errors in fact are irritating to some readers when they find them, for me, unless we’re talking wilful ignorance, stereotype etc, it really doesn’t upset me as a reader either.

Something that we touched on during the discussion (we were only there an hour, but once we got going felt like we could have gone on much longer thanks to Nick’s excellent chairing) is the difference between evoking and depicting a place. I’m interested in conveying atmosphere and mood. In writing about what it is like to come from somewhere not very trendy, not very well known, and fairly hard to get out of. In writing about how disappointing, inward looking places impact on character and what it is like to grow up bored and disappointed. In paralysis, feeling trapped, not quite realising that in other places, it might be possible to do things a little bit differently. In giving anonymous, and frankly, sometimes fairly ugly Northern towns to readers who haven’t met them before. De-Preston. Not in writing a guide-book or a travelogue.

I think the difference between depicting and evoking is the difference between facts and fiction. I push what I know and what I see into a story and it becomes something odd, something that doesn’t exist anywhere except my book, and yet references Preston and hundreds of other towns. I hope that people who want to find out what Preston feels like find something useful in my book. They certainly won’t be able to use it as a road map.

On the train home, watching Deansgate, Salford, Bolton, Horwich and Chorley slide by the window, I was still chunnering about this question – remembering my bookseller friend who tells me that my book sells much better when they don’t market me as a ‘local writer’ and another very experienced poet who let me in on the secret that ‘local writer’ is (often read as) shorthand for ‘crap writer of interest to no-one other than their friends’. Regional writer? Is it possible to write about where you come from in a way that’s going to be interesting and illuminating to people who are not from that place? I think it is – after all, there are unfashionable, cut-off feeling towns all over the world: I am just writing about the ones I can write about without being a tourist.

I know from my stats that many of the people who read this blog are from Elsewhere and might have first read my writing in one of the overseas editions. So if you haven’t commented so far on the blog, now is the time to weigh in. I am interested in what these places look like to readers who might never have visited them before.

In other news, I’ll be checking the proofs of Cold Light next week AND I’ve seen what the cover is going to look like AND the book has recently sold in the US, and will be published with William Morrow. Which is all very good. And I’m investigating plane tickets for Salt Lake City.

Good

Tuesday, October 19th, 2010

Final, jiggling with the completed manuscript of Cold Light before it goes to the typesetters. I pity the person who needs to make this scribbled, Tipp-exed, dog-eared lump of well loved paper into a book.

Things I have learned during these edits:

You can’t have someone watching the adverts while The Antique Roadshow is on, because AR was a BBC programme and there weren’t any adverts.

The prescription charge in 1997 did not apply to contraceptives prescribed by a doctor, did apply to the morning after pill unless you got it from a doctor in an A and E department or you were under the age when prescription charges would usually apply.

My handwriting is attrocious, and I drip tea on everything.

Lemsips really do take care of anxiety.

Filth

Tuesday, September 21st, 2010

It has come to my attention that my house is fairly filthy. Blogging has given way to washing the sofa covers, wiping cupboards and brushing up behind and under things. I’ve been asked at festivals and events how I find the time to do everything that I do, and my answer is always something blithe and self-deprecating and to do with neglecting the housework / failing to hoover / having a very understanding and low maintenance Mr.

Domestic neglect has been the game plan for about three or four years now, and because there’s more cat-hair, biscuit crumbs and dust than carpet The Progeny have mighty immune systems. Still, the rot has got to stop somewhere.

Which is a roundabout way of saying sorry, this blog has been quiet, and trust me, there are cobwebs gathering here but my house is almost sparkling.

And isn’t washing sofa covers the most boring job in the world?

In other news, my friends Valerie, Kim and Daisy have all recently completed their MAs in Creative Writing. Hooray and Congratulations! I’m feeling a bit jealous of all this end of term gadding about while at Ashworth Towers I’ve been learning how the hoover works again (there’s a bit you can pull out and empty… who knew?)

Lest you think I’ve gone all 1950s housewife (pfft!) I’ve got a new job teaching Creative Writing at UCLAN (students, pupils, fellow writers – I promise your experience during my workshops won’t be (much) like this) and I am brewing interviews with and reviews of Nik Perring’s Not So Perfect, Sarah Hymas’ poetry collection Host and my new birthday present Amazon Kindle. (I am not going to interview my Kindle. Hoovering has not driven me over the edge just yet).

In Cold Light news, I’m nearing the end of my final round of edits and helping, in very small ways, to devise jacket-blurb. I’m kind of shy about talking about it (editing) too much here – partly because my vanity would like to maintain the illusion that there was very little editing to do and indulge myself in the polite fiction that the manuscript was sold to my publisher perfectly complete and finished.

Still, if you want to know about the Writing Life know this: even writers who pontificate in their classes and workshops about how necessary humility and flexibility and a willingness to listen to feedback, to murder darlings etc are to creating a piece of good writing, and writers who internally and secretly can’t quite believe that being a Good Writer does not always equal being a Good Person (we’ll unknot that in another blog post) can throw epic three day long strops / silences / broods /sulks over suggested cuts (one mug broken) do them anyway and realise wise editor was correct.

In order to calm my frazzled self and do something other than typing or talking about typing or looking at other people’s typing, I am going back to my pottery class. Who wants a limited edition, ugly, lopsided Thing. Is it a mug? Is it an ashtray? You Decide!

Hooray!

Wednesday, August 25th, 2010

The final and proof-read-to-within-an-inch-of-its-life version of Cold Light is away to Sceptre and until the copy edits and proofs come back for me to check it is temporarily Not My Problem and that feels great. No cigars or champagne, but an almost teary sense of relief and immediately planning what I’m going to use the scant work time I have over the next couple of weeks for.

Until you see me next, feel free to join in with the discussion about the downsides of blogging that continues here, or read The Wrong Shoes – the story I wrote for Bugged. Those of you who have loads of time on your hands and money to burn might want to pop on over to Amazon, where Cold Light in all its manifestations is now available for pre-order. I’m off to do an interview with Grazia (I kid you not…)

Problematic

Sunday, August 22nd, 2010

I’ve been working, as I might have mentioned once or twice (cough), on a final list of tweaks and edits to Cold Light – the last hurrah before it is off to Sceptre for them to work their magic and turn my story into a book.

The work hasn’t been extensive but it has been slow and painstaking – mainly because I want to check time-lines and continuities, (I have a chart and everything) and because it has helped me to look at the novel in an entirely different way which has involved lots more tweaking. And the fellow writers amongst you will know, once a novel is nearly finished altering one sentence in an early chapter has knock on effects and often means you need to rewrite a paragraph in a late chapter. Which is as it should be – it shows the whole thing is knitted together, is all of a piece.

I’ve already blogged a little bit about the way the first glimmers of the story for Cold Light came to me. It was similar for A Kind of Intimacy – where I had the idea of neighbours and envy and tea parties right from the very start. I like this part of writing – the inventing part seems easier. I always have lots of tall tales up my sleeve. I can create a mess of a first draft in a couple of months.

Editing is very different though. By editing I mean anything from a second draft to a seventh, and the final tweaking which I am doing now. A Kind of Intimacy was seven drafts – Cold Light has been about the same although because I don’t tend to start at Chapter One and end at the Epilogue the lines between what counts as one draft and the next are always very blurred. Editing means turning the shapeless mass of the first draft into something that runs from page one to page – let me check… 337 at last count – with some kind of drive forwards and coherence.

What has helped me this time is to think of the novel as an attempt to solve problems that were thrown up by my original idea. In my mind, it works a bit like this:

What happens if you’re always the one left out and all the interesting things are taking place when you’re at home or distracted by other, more mundane events? What happens if you desperately want to be included, but almost never are?

This translates into a problem – of telling a story where the narrator didn’t witness any of the dramatic, plotty-type things that happened. Hmmm.

What happens if the effect of one winter in your teens totally derails the course of your life? And what if that life is stunted – if you grow into an adult who still acts like a fourteen year old? What if I want to write a story about people who get stuck, who don’t change?

One of the members of my fiction group translated this into a problem perfectly – the characterisation is static, the action in this part of the book is static (to be specific, adult Lola spends a LOT of her time alone in her flat watching television) and this works against narrative, which has forward motion, is about change and development.

Hmm.

So my editing this time around has been structured by me knowing I wanted to tell a gripping story about a crime with a few spanners thrown in the works (the narrator leads a life that would be boring to read too much about and is remembering a time and a series of events that she doesn’t funny understand and didn’t fully experience).

It isn’t up to me to judge how well Cold Light has solved those problems, but it has turned into the sort of book I’d like to read. I’m looking forward to seeing what people think. (Actually, that is an out and out lie. I’ve been composing scathing reviews for myself in my head for weeks).

I know this is itself a very partial, over simplified, craft-oriented way of thinking about writing and editing and checking if a novel ‘works’ or not. It is not dissimilar to the idea of ‘plot’ being nothing more than characters overcoming obstacles to get at something they want or get away from something they don’t want. ‘Story’ as problem solving for characters and structuring a ‘plot’ as problem solving for writers. Which works as a way of thinking about stories a lot of the time, but not always. And I don’t know if it would work like this for poets. It seems to be more of a way to think about how to do a plot than how to do language.

I’m looking forward to the next novel too (no working title yet. Just Number Three). I am wondering how my very specific requirements about structure: five first person narrators all narrating, partially and unreliably, the events of one twelve hour stretch of time are going to throw up problems for me, and what tricks I need to learn to solve those problems and tell the story. I’m excited to find out. I like the realist novel. I don’t think it is dead.

Book Deal + Bananas + Booths

Tuesday, July 13th, 2010

Top Banana!

I have been dying to tell you for a little while now that Cold Light is going to be published in Spring 2011 by Sceptre. Sceptre publish lots of authors that I really like so it is terrific to be amongst such good company.

‘Terrific’ isn’t a word I’ve used a lot in my life. I don’t think I’ve ever said ‘fabulous’ aloud, in company either. At least while sober. There’s something about my natural hang-dog expression that makes any enthusiasm or pleasure I express come out as sarcasm. I try hard, but I can’t help it.

Splendid! Hmm.

Lancashire people sort of nod and sigh and say, ‘better than a poke in the eye with a blunt stick,’ or ‘not bad’ so we’ll do that for a little while instead.

Top Banana! *rubs hands*

I got the good news when I was in hospital in late May, and it was just the cheering up that I needed after being fairly ill for a couple of weeks and having a little bit of bad news about a job I hoped to get but lost the funding for at the last minute. You know now, I think, how I feel about bed rest and hospitals and people saying You Can’t, and In Your Condition and the millions of pounds you pay on cards for the telly on the extendable arm just to remind yourself why you don’t have a television at home anymore.

Sceptre are also going to be publishing the book after Cold Light too (as yet unnamed and only muttered about) although my tentative progress on that has been put on hold until after the summer, as I have a September deadline for the edited copy of Cold Light and there are a few jobs and tweaks I want to make to it before it goes off. I’ve been spending the last couple of days going over my new editor’s notes on the manuscript she’s seen, and the annotated copy of the book that she posted to me this week, and having a Hard Think about what I want to do about things.

Yes, I know I’ve just had a baby. The pram isn’t just in the hallway, it’s in the actual office and is suiting us just fine thank you very much.

I’ve never worked with an editor in this way before. It was very strange to have telephone conversations about my ideas. Normally when I’m writing I keep it all to myself. I’ve talked about some of my ideas for book three with the Northern Lines Fiction Workshop I helped set up (I reckon I will blog about this at some point too) and that helped, but it still felt odd. Even when I was doing my MA, I was more inclined to present my workshop group with the writing and let it speak for itself, scribble while they talked about it and digest the feedback in my own time rather than jump in with explanations and questions. So this is new. But I am not disliking it and I realise now I’ve been looking for something new – some way to stretch myself as a writer – for a while now.

For some reason, I thought it would be less exciting the second time round. The same is for books as it is for babies: it is different and nerve-racking and exciting in the same and different ways. Familiar in some ways you’d expect to be strange, with a new publisher and a new book, and strange in some ways you’d expect it to be familiar (I have done this before, after all).

I know some people liked the first book, but the second one is different. I couldn’t pull two Annies out of the bag, and the things I’m interested in writing about now are different than they were when I was twenty three*. It would be strange if they weren’t. So there’s that. And there’s the excitement too, that something I worked on for three years with no guarantee it would ever see the light of day (boom boom) will be in a bookshop early next year.

That bit is just as exciting now as it was the last time.

*I am twenty seven and just two days ago, while buying some birthday-present booze, I got asked for ID. This more than made up for the kick in the teeth I got at the school gates three days ago, when someone asked me when I was due to have the baby. Thank you, vigilant Booths check-out man. You are my hero.

Editing + Sound Track

Monday, July 12th, 2010

Hard at work for a little while at least, and working through my edits to Cold Light straight onto the manuscript with a new nice pencil which I get to stop and sharpen now and again. Desk cluttered with coffee mugs (I’m a tea-drinker, but I was also up five times last night) and two kinds of pencil sharpeners, post-it notes, a pile of books that I planned to while away my maternity leave reading (pfft!) and a bowl full of paper-clips that I made myself. The bowl, not the paper-clips. I think I’d like to go back to my pottery class this autumn.

Pencils are almost as good as fountain pens and bottles of ink for mid-sentence procrastination. Examining the lead, sharpening, rubbing things out and putting them back in again. Slowly, one line at a time. But not as good as deciding you need to listen to some of the songs mentioned in the book in order to make sure you’re ‘conveying atmosphere’ exactly right.

Readers, for your listening and viewing pleasure:

Writing Cold Light

Sunday, June 27th, 2010

See, I do haveĀ  a little bit of good news to tell you about Cold Light, but not just yet. I wanted to write about writing the thing. It’s easier to see how it went now it’s been a few months since I’ve looked at it.

The hardest part was pulling the ideas out of nowhere – it didn’t come to me with a story fully-formed, like number three has. There was a scene – two teenage girls in a car with a man they thought was a bit older than them, but was actually very much older than them. I could see the place where this scene was going to happen – the car-park of Cuerden Valley Park, which is fairly near where I live and very near to where I used to live when I was a couple of years older than the girls who started to appear to me. Chloe and Lola.

Chloe is the blond, secretive, popular one. Sometimes she talks in an American accent. Lola is her best friend – a girl with fuzzy hair and parents who’d buy her a new school coat for Christmas. I could see them in the car-park – on the coldest and deadest day of the year: Boxing Day. No idea what they were doing there, who the gentle, vulnerable man was they’d just bumped into to, or why they were out on their own with this older man.

Carl. The one with a car. The one who bought them mobile phones to keep tabs on them. Lives with his mother, who has diabetes, collects china tea sets, uses a wheelchair. (The details of the story came tumbling out, like this, as if from the air). But I knew it was cold and they were staring through a bare hawthorn hedge at something and they didn’t want to be there, not really. Something terrible was going to happen.

So that’s where I started. I wrote it, and tried to build a story around it. It took about three years, and realising half-way through I’d gone down the wrong track and had to throw half of it away and start again. That scene is still there though – the heart and the start of the book. Boxing Day, 1997, Cuerden Valley Nature Park (car park).

You can read an extract of Cold Light here – it was published in The Manchester Review late last year.

Home Sweet Home

Friday, March 26th, 2010

Seems my work has taken on a bit of a theme in the past few weeks – not something I’ve planned, but something that’s happened on its own and now that I am noticing it, I quite like it.

First, there’s the storytelling / blogging project I’m doing in The Wirral – funded by Liverpool Biennial and project-managed by Elaine Speight, the brains behind the Preston art project Tunnel Visions, among other things. Yesterday was spent in Rock Ferry Library (I chickened out and went on the train, so no terrifying drive through The Tunnel) meeting prospective participants and firming up our ideas about the shape the project will take. More on this in the weeks to come.

Second, I’ve just been booked to deliver a few workshops in various Greater Manchester locations on the theme of writing about place for Rainy City Stories, Kate Feld’s story-telling project and have been preparing / procrastinating by delving through the archives. You can read my own Manchester story here and my thoughts about being a Lancastrian writer here.

Place, and a sense of it, is more than just where to set the fiction I was going to write anyway. It is more than picking a few street-names and landmarks to use for stage dressing and backdrop.

Here’s what I mean: A Kind of Intimacy couldn’t happen anywhere other than Fleetwood: the ‘I thought this was going to be like Blackpool’ sense of disappointment pervades the book and, I’ve noticed, means more to audiences I’ve read to and spoken with in the North West than elsewhere.  

Cold Light takes place in an odd, fictionalised version of Preston. It’s set in 1998, but not a 1998 that I ever experienced. The shops are open twenty-four hours a day, there are television screens everywhere, the outside world is a rumour and again, this sense of disappointment pervades – even though the school teachers get to wear their red socks on the morning after the 1997 election. I’m resigned to the fact that the topography of the novel will mean more to me and the ten or so Preston residents who read my work than anyone else. We’re not like Manchester, Edinburgh or Sheffield – the street names and landmarks don’t speak to anyone except for us. And I’ve used these landmarks in the book – not as stage-dressing, but to make this place familiar as well as strange. Cold Light‘s Preston  is the Preston it might have been, if what happens in the story really did happen – events so important they bend The City out of shape and make it into something foreign and familiar, uncanny and homely.

So I have discovered that for me, writing about a place is one of the ways I can interact with it – it’s more engaged and intimate than just taking a walk or taking a few pictures (although wouldn’t be, I expect, for a real photographer). And writing about a very familiar place makes it into something new and strange – just as whenever I try and write autobiographical pieces, factions, personal essays, whatever, they come out story-shaped and frilled with lies.

That’s the experience I’m hoping to give my Wirral workshop group – lending them my eyes – unfamiliar with their territory, and helping them to shape their thoughts and experiences into a set of linked, blogged fictions about Wirral and not-Wirral. They’re a group with vastly differing experiences of writing, blogging, working collaboratively and using the internet as well as the real world to make fiction. I’m not sure yet how it’s going to work out but I’m looking forward to finding out.

All this got me thinking about briefs, requirements, creative boundaries because for this project to work and for me to be able to tie up the stories into something linked and web-like, I’m going to have to be a little bit directive. And as a creative writing tutor and a human being, I try to avoid doing that too much. Deadlines and instructions and imposed forms are okay if you set them for yourself, but there’s a voice in my head, as I plan the story-brief for the Wirral writers, that is saying, ‘and who are you to tell them how they are allowed to write about their town?’

This made me remember the discussion I had with Sophie Hannah at Ormskirk Library a couple of months ago – she said she set herself the challenge of resolving the plot-conundrum that kicks off the action of the book (women claims the baby in her house is not hers, for example) and doesn’t allow herself to get out of it  – to fail. That for her, creativity means solving the problem and balancing the equation (I am paraphrasing). Then and now this and made me think about my own process as a writer and as a teacher.

I’ve been evaluating the project that I did at the prison – examining the feedback that I got from the men in the creative writng group as well as my own jotted-down throughts on the workshop as they happened.  There were two deadlines for this writing project, which involved flash fiction, memoir and lots of ‘what if’ thinking. I was fairly prescriptive about what ‘Flash Fiction’ meant, and what themes I wanted the men to address in their writing, and how I wanted them to interact with me and each other during the six workshop sessions I held in the prison.

Feedback time came, and I asked them about this – asked if I’d been too prescriptive and directive, if they’d have liked more freedom in the form or the theme, if they felt they’d been able to make enough choices about the way their own work developed. Generally, the feeling was that the form and the structure of the project had helped, that at best they’d enjoyed finding ways to be creative inside the ‘rules’ and that at the very least, they’d learned that writing didn’t always need to be heart-felt and spontaneous in order to be ‘good’ (I think the man who said this meant, ‘I liked what I wrote and felt pleased with it’ when he said ‘good’).

So I’m trying to make this – my thinking about place, and rules around writing, form, structural decisions, the things I’m learning about myself through teaching and planning projects, my wish to help other people and myself to finding a place to be creative in – all these thoughts – into something useful for me to take into the planning phases of my next novel, which is glimmering in the corner of my eye and needs some attention.

I don’t think I am there yet. Maybe blogging about it is part of getting me to that spot.

Luminous

Friday, March 12th, 2010

While writing Cold Light, I did loads of research on light. I was mainly interested in the creepy light that came out of some kinds of jellyfish and squid, fire-flies and glow-worms, some kinds of mushrooms and angler fish. Also, the light that comes from television sets. Kinds of light that do not also make things hot.

I am not all together excellent at doing research, so most of my it involved reading things that I didn’t really understand, misunderstanding, looking at pictures and rooting about for something interesting. I knew I’d know it when I found it, or at least, a long time after I’d read about it and copied it into my note-book, I’d know why I found it interesting.

Not knowing much about science and not quite understanding everything I read even though I was interested in it was okay too, because the character I was researching for was also an interested amateur who read more than he understood and had big, silly ideas. I wasn’t so much finding out things as I was practising being someone I wanted to write about.

Method writing.

I’m still not sure about what got me started on light and bioluminescence. I remember first reading an article about it in 2007 so it’s been an interest of mine for ages. I knew I wanted to write about it, and to write about television, and about big ideas and silly ideas and things that seemed too far-fetched and wonderful to be true.

My writing comes to me first through objects. The domestic clutter that ends up being part of the fabric of the book – both setting and plot. When I think about A Kind of Intimacy I see tins of golden syrup and woodchip wallpaper and kitchen roll with grease spots on, semi detached houses, air-beds and tea-pots. When I think about Cold Light I see television sets flickering in darkened empty rooms, and the way that I can see the blue light from people’s televisions moving behind their curtains when I’m walking about at night.

Here’s an article about a lamp made from a hamster’s ovary.


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